De-activated.

Good bye Facebook. It’s been a fun run but I just can’t do it anymore. I’m keeping my Instagram and my blog but Facebook is bye bye. In the last year I have lost 6 friends. Nothing in the world is worth that price. At first I was like “god what their problem” but obviously it’s me. I’m a bad friend. I mean I can be an amazing friend but I’m opinionated and have a serious talking problem. I have started countless arguments in Facebook for fun, and made snotty remarks, I’m not sure what makes me think I’m better than anyone else but I did. I’m ashamed of who I was, and am. I am going to be a better person and friend. Angela. I’m sorry I put you in the middle and made you feel bad about not hanging out with me, I know you are busy. Tiana. You tried to help me and I continue to fuck up, if you never forgive me I understand but I really do care about you I’m so sorry for the things I do. Jen, Lindsay, Larissa, and Ruth I’m so sorry every time we talk I bring up my problems and bring drama to you and I try to make you talk to me about it. You are all great people and I hope you will still be my friend after all this. Isabel. I’m a selfish ass wipe, and I shouldn’t have backed down and threw you away you deserve better, granted I still don’t like her much haha sorry. Zainna, I couldn’t get on my hands and knees and grovel to apologize enough. You are one of my best friends and the only one I have never argued with and I did. Honestly you said something that hurt me, but the damage I did was worse, you have put up with so much of my shit and I am so sorry I don’t know we can ever be the same but I’m going to try. I love you all and I took you all for granted. Please understand I’m not who I want to be, I’m trying to be better and I want to be a great friend so I hope in time you all understand and forgive me and if you don’t, I will forever learn and morn the loss of our friendships.